Cloud Connected
19th July 2010 with 56 comments
I hate attachments.
Not the attachments in email. I know they take up a lot of room, and when you’re attaching a large photo, it takes a long time for it to attach, and even longer to send. You do have to admit that email attachments are a gem, though.
I mean emotional attachment.
I still have my Memory Box I mentioned in a previous post. It’s just a little box where I keep little memoirs and things. I don’t bother looking into it. I didn’t have a great past, and I just wanted to forget it, but I don’t know why these little things mean so much to me that I have to keep them.
I get attached to things easily. It is almost embarrassing. When James and I used to go out and eat gelato a lot, I kept all the spoons. I’d wash them and clean them but I’d keep them all. Not the way my mum reuses plastic spoons like normal spoons after cleaning them – but I’d just keep them for memory’s sake. They’re still sitting in a freaking container in my room.
Mind you, the container is from a bunch of walnuts James gave me.
Which I ate during my final exams in high school.
(Yes, we were allowed to eat during exams.)
I stopped collecting the spoons after some time. I felt like it was silly. But when it comes to more personal things, like letters, they’re things I keep. In fact, taking a peek in my Memory Box, I spotted quite a great deal of them.
It’s a little like Christmas cards and birthday cards I got throughout high school. I tossed them all in a bag and I keep them. I just simply cannot bring myself to get rid of them. Sometimes I think, “Hmm, I just keep all the stuff that means a lot to me, it’s no big deal”.
That’s when I realise I have a lot of junk in my room that doesn’t mean anything to me. School textbooks. Old CDs of music I barely even like anymore.
The worst I found – the other day I found a binder full of biology, physics, chemistry and senior science notes. They were insanely neat. Maybe that’s why I kept them, even if I have no use for them now.
Most of you know me as the girl with many domains. And too many fanlistings. 
Today, I closed the fanlisting for Krist Novoselic. My first closed fanlisting. I made the decision because I don’t feel like I’m much of a fan of him anymore, and because that is one of my least liked fanlistings. I have over 100, so I felt like it was time to close one.
It was wrenching – as lame as it sounds. I have an attachment to all of my websites that when it’s time to let one go, even though I know it’s the right decision… it will almost never be the right time. Sometimes I just have to bite the bullet and freaking do it.
I think that applies to more than just emotional attachment. 
I’m quite attached to a lot of my childhood toys and refuse to give them up, mostly because there’s just so many memories attached to them. Eventually I do clean some things up and throw them away, but not as often as I probably should 
It makes me happy when I look at it. 
I feel like snapping at her and being all, “THAT’S NOT WHAT I MEANT!!” Because it’s not, and I think that if she would have read it again that maybe she would understand … is that mean? :|
My twin sister is going to a math and science highschool and I am going to languages. 
= the best face there
I am the complete opposite.
My mom likes to do that too. She’d keep all the plastic forks, spoons and knives. We have a big bag of those. 
When Eric and I used to go out and eat yogurt, he kept the spoons. I’d tease him about it, “Are you going to add that to your collection?” Haha. 
Yeah, your right. It does seem silly to collect them. What are you going to do? Put it in an album or something? 
Yeah, I like to keep personal stuff too like letters.
Sorry to hear about closing your Krist Novoselic fanlisting. I know it was a tough decision, but you did what you had to do. I’m sure who ever is taking over know it’ll be in good hands. 
I guess it’s a girl thing. (But I know some guys who are also like this 
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And retreat letters during high school days! 
It happened before…. I am just glad it didn’t happen again. 
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Jem
19th July 2010 at 11:55 pm
I think it’s a bit of a girl thing. Even I save things, and I’m a fairly emotionally distant person
I actually recently had a clear out of old birthday and valentines cards because they’re just not necessary.
One thing I do have though is a memory chest for my daughter. It has things like our scan photos, her first outfit, welcome home cards and that sort of thing in it. I will add her first birthday cards, too, when the time comes. Eventually I’ll give it to her when she’s old enough
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