Follow the sun
15th June 2010 with 47 comments
It’s cold. It’s been cold all day. It’s been cold all week. I hate the cold sometimes.
I’m definitely the kind of person who complains. It’s a nasty habit, I’ll admit. I complain about everything. This morning I went to university (just to run some errands and whatnot, and buy a new laptop mouse). I sat down on a couch for a bit with my laptop, and this boy sat on the other end of the couch. It annoyed me because there were other couches around but he had to sit near me. Maybe I was just feeling overwhelmed and that’s why I felt like he was invading my “personal space”, as hilarious and ridiculous as that sounds.
I was so annoyed about it that I actually grumbled to Sebby about the situation.
I’ve also just had a really bad weekend. I’d rather not – well, don’t want to – talk about it.
Today I was considering just dropping quite a few of my websites, since they all seem to be taking so much of my time. But I love them all. It’s just… blergh.
Again, things have been tough at home. I’ve mentioned this quite a few times in the past. The moment everything is alright, it becomes a huge uproar again. I don’t want to go in detail but just as I said, it’s at home – it’s my family. It’s been hard. Times I’ve been banned from the computer and various other things. It leaves me really upset.
I know I shouldn’t feel like there’s anything to live up to here – no one is making me return comments or update. But it, too, has become a habit.
I didn’t like being yelled at by my mum last week. I had so many university assignments to do and the last thing on my mind was definitely chores. I’m making room for them this break – come on. Cut me some slack?
Today I got a new laptop mouse. My dad had many and I wondered why he told me to buy a new one. Then I realised that they were computer mice and they wouldn’t plug in, so I had to find a USB mouse. My old (albeit cute and small) red mouse had torn at the connector so it continually disconnected. I felt sad putting it in the bin.
I also use a left handed mouse so it was hard to find a mouse that my dad had that wasn’t so large and wasn’t shaped to fit the right hand. I ended up buying a significantly larger grey mouse, but it works well so that’s all that matters. It was also pretty cheap.
It’s cold now, still… I like soup and warm hugs in winter, and soft, sweet music. I also dream… I dream of dancing, I dream of people getting along, and families getting along, and friends…

(sorry, I’m a green freak sometimes lmao)
Well..Can’t wait..to get My Website Back

Same as you, I can’t help it. I wish I could stop but sometimes it just feels good to complain. Oh well, I guess we all do.
Who knows?
A stranger has a reading material. You have to deal with this person through out the entire trip.
I could understand that feeling. I have to go through that every time I ride The Bus.
The internet is free. I can read books.
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Daniel
16th June 2010 at 12:13 am
I hope everything stays alright for you. I worry for you day and night, and quite frankly if I could book a ticket for Sydney and hightail it there right now to give you the warmest hug that I could, I would. Well… someday.
I don’t think the part about the boy invading your personal space is hilarious or ridiculous at all. It isn’t that big of a deal either, but I totally identify with you. It’s just irksome to have somebody sit as close to you as it could possibly get of all places, you know?
I don’t know a lot about what goes on for you at home, and I wish I could say much to help you but I don’t know how to. Here, maybe it’s just boring. I get yelled at by my mum too every now and then. Sometimes when things get completely out of hand, whether because of shit my mum is saying or shit people online are saying, I have to blow up in the middle of the entire house. And it doesn’t feel good.
You don’t have to bin your red mouse! Since it’s only a frayed connector you could always keep your mouse on display somewhere. If my parents hadn’t been such moneyfaces and sold off my third-generation iPod nano (the little fatty) without my permission after I got my iPhone 3G, I would’ve done the same for it. Although I must admit I did allow my iPhone 3G to be sold because it was necessary to fund my iPhone 3GS. And the 3GS should come in handy to fund an iPhone 4 once I’m ready for one :3
But I digress. You know what I think? You don’t have to limit yourself to dreaming. I’m sure the people around you in the real world right now — family, friends — are all waiting to make it happen with you. It’s hard, I know, but I’m sure most of us will get along with time <3
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